Oldie-but-goodie if you are just now tuning in ūüôā and p.s. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY this shoes picture is now so gigantic, but I can tell you that I took it on the night of my daughter’s first-ever Winter ball, now ¬†2 years ago. Are those shoes not the cutest??? See what I mean?? Not that I have any real occasion to wear shoes like that around here, really. Mountain town, remember. She does tho’ through whatever the weather. Oh, the sweet vanity of youth ūüėÄ ¬†cheerio!

go down swingin'

the shoes

On the other hand (-er‚Äďfoot)‚Ķ

having a teenage daughter in the house does have its advantages. Take my wardrobe, for example. Please.

At least take my old one.  Because you see, I have entered the exciting era of In-House-Discards-Shopping.

Let me explain. She, at the shiny age of 15 , has become obsessed with clothing and fashion. With the dough she makes at her sweet hostess job, which shecan walk to, yo, as in, no need for car and contingent car expenses in her forseeable future, whoohoo!  she treats herself to some great threads, which she meticulously shops for online from her favorite stores. She has gotten really good at it.

Unlike ME, who is NOT  good at it anymore, mostly because I have been broke for about 15 years now and am, therefore, pathetically out of practice.

MY ‚Äúwardrobe‚ÄĚ, and you have to understand the northern ski-town aspect‚Ķ

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A short (but powerful) break with wind chimes

Go Down Swingin says :

” happy time! ¬†^^MUST DO THIS ^^ ¬†“

Parenting And Stuff

Wind Chimes

Colored Bamboo wind chimes

Don’t know about you, I could use some break. 

This post of yesterday¬†‚Äď such comments are always taking me a bit off-balance.

Not that I’m very balanced lately. Balance is not interesting anyway.

So I did what I always do lately, created some new tech issues with the newparents site. Try it, that’s when you lean back in your chair and let other people fix what you ruined. That is great, take it from me! I’ve started doing it on purpose, see?

Wind chimes. I was leaning back thinking I need to relax, and suddenly heard the wind chimes from outside.

It was like someone heard my thoughts.

I’m already planning to make wind chimes with my kids for the last 8 years, So I’m sure it will happen very soon.

I collected for you some amazing ideas that you can  show your…

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as good as it gets


Do you have any control over how creepy you allow yourself to get? ¬†¬†–waitress carol

Yes I do, as a matter of fact. And to prove it, I have not gotten personal, and you have.

–melvin udall

swingin for the fences


there is no such thing as an original thought ¬† ¬† –author unknown



   Fully-functional people are a marvel can    kiss my ass.

In another 4 am stroke of genius, into my brain popped¬†one of those “original” ideas or words I make up and smile myself back to sleep with. Only to arise at normal people time already suspicious, confirming with a quick ((0.19 seconds))¬†Googlstroke that my idea has been “invented” ((About 10,200,000)) times already.


No matter. Others may have coined the term, but they are just other silly, grasping kooks who don’t own it, either. ¬†I am a blogger who wants to blog. I am a creative, semi-intelligent 48 year old human, who also has been living as a biP for years. Without meds. But also without much sustained success as a teen or adult.

So blog I will. About all thoughts, “bipolar” ¬†as they may sometimes be. Bipolar Express. Because this is twisted and funny. Here at the Almost-50 juncture of my life, I have become rather laugh or die about things.

In the days of Jimi Hendrix it was called manic depression, remember?  Jimi Hendrix was a way cool dude.jimi

While secretly proud of just being alive, among a few other accomplishments, ¬†I still want “success,” that is, getting comfortable enough in my own skin to just be who I am and run with it, till I’m done and I die.

This did not happen with regular ¬†jobs I’ve held, such as waitress or ¬†local news reporter, or, god bless us, teacher. These jobs, along with thousands of others, are for well-adjusted folks. Marvelous folks, putting it out there with a happy face on it, day-in, day-out.

Consistently positive, shiny people make me want to throw up in my mouth a little  get on with it and find a way to contribute, too.

I ¬†get¬†the strategy. Good vibes. Don’t worry, be happy. ¬†Fake it till ya make it.¬†¬†And yes, I do the whole diet-exercise-enlightenment thing till I am…well, blue.


It has taken me waaay too long to accept this deal about myself. ¬†I’ve become ¬†a whiz at The Two Year Marathon. I can hold my breath under water a long time. But inevitably, I have to run screaming, and crawl back under my rock for a spell. Back out, I am a great liar. At the local grocery store, out at the Farmer’s Market, ¬†I weave tales of ¬†adventure, learning, and suspense. Once I even employed crutches as a –crutch. Nasty accidents–especially the kind attached to chunks of settlement $$, ¬†are super-handy for changes in course. Buy some time ¬†and no one dares to ask questions.

And, No One ever really knows what the hell I’m up to. Important to the me, the Secret Weirdo.

However, I think this game has now played itself out. At home, and away. ¬†“Away” isn’t far in a small hipster town. I am keenly aware of those hipsters, too! The ones who have their shit goin’ on while I peek at Netflix from under a blanket on the couch on any given night of the week(end). ¬†The home team? ¬†They’re ready to pitch me the meds.

So now what?

Be Real?  Where will that get me?

the evolving face of privacy

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¬†¬†¬†Snorting with sinister satisfaction, Nigel scrolls his Friends page, demoting 99% of his work and inlaw “friends” to “acquaintance” status.¬†


( : /

that awkward moment when u see the FB friend request u sent still not confirmed. months later.

active account.





the vanity and the agony of february


feBRRuary. Uncanny the way we celebrate Valentine’s Day in the dead of winter. At least for those of us residing in the more Northern seasonal zones……But truly, what would the sad-and-pasty¬†among us do without it? ¬† ¬† ¬†It is¬†about LOVE¬†you know, that unconditional guarantee of not-aloneness…right?

by Feb. 14th I know I need a dose..minus the chocolates. Not that I don’t want those too.

We all know some of those well-adjusted folks out there who have mastered the art of staying lean, mean and bronze year round. They dutifully climb inside tanning beds, or into some sort of¬†body shop for re-painting humans. They run on treadmills, work weights, ski regularly…they are doing it right now, while I write this…and sometime in March (or before) they redeem air miles for the tropics, where they soak up real sun, listen to Jimmy Cliff, ¬†and sip¬†Green Ouzo Margaritas, recharging their sexy to forge on until June’s warm rays once again claim us all in the northern hemisphere.


This blog writer is  not one of those kind of folks.

I hang in there ’til well past Thanksgiving. The summer tan hangs on, and I continue my healthy outdoorsy pace of hiking and biking despite frosty cold. Snow, even. Top of my game, momentum is way up. ¬†I find myself jumping into chatter about such things as age, eating habits, and similar tedium with more ¬†enthusiasm than is called for from any mature thinking adult person.

The snow gets deep(er). Around here, we get blasted with arctic air for weeks at a time. Christmas holidays happen. Holiday cookie gifts happen. Eggnog. Other drinking. Sun does not happen. More drinking. Less motivation. Many more naps. Soon after, a fateful line is crossed where, torn between a nap or strapping on the snowshoes, Nap wins (I curse you, wretched Nap! But, I love you so..)

And so, the Cycle of Winter Weight Gain..and humility..begins, again.

Found myself standing¬†on a medical scale in a hotel fitness room this past weekend,¬†staring depressedly at the final resting place of the sliding weights in front of me. The ugly truth: ¬†Up four pounds. On a little person.¬†Jeezus.¬†hey, the statuesque among you can just SHUT UP right now with your sarcasm if you don’t get it.¬†¬†I wasn’t shocked, but the denial of just how much I’d gained was over. Next, a quick assessment in the well-lit hotel mirror re-confirmed that my toasty bronze shield had, most decidedly, been replaced by the pale greenish-yellow color some call “olive” but which I call “swamp thing.” Swamp thing with chicken pox, more accurately, as wierd spots reemerge like beach jetsam at low tide. Super-attractive.


Low tide, lol. ¬†That’s one way to describe my now-corresponding (lack of) libido.

  lol, get it?

How do so many do it? I mean DO it? Stats show that over 10.5 thousand U.S. babies are born EACH DAY in October, November and December of every year, so counting nine months back means that the months of January through March are, by this measure, full of thousands of ¬†nakedly conjoined bodies. Are these all wealthy, tanned resort people, or just regular, mediocre folks, like me, with no vanity, unlike me? I know there are, like, a bajillion other mediocre people (or should I say, WOMEN, since we all know that exactly none of this humility stuff applies to men) out there…so how can the seasonal change into lesser-attractiveness not matter to such a great number of them? Less daylight to battle with maybe? ¬†Shorter days do mean longer nights. Hmm. Longer nights. Lots more dark. Add a couple rum toddies–or, I mean, whatever mediocre people are drinking these days– and some ¬†firelight(-esque) enhancement…and

Viola!..ze  playing field  es now  levile?

Shag City for the masses, apparently.

now what’s my excuse??¬†


Sleeepy. Definitely time for a nap. Maybe a chocolate will help! Maybe it’ll be a caramel nougat! ¬†Man¬†am I glad someone loves me right now, in yet another February of my pathetic existence

Incidentally, stats show that THE MOST babies are born in:

1) Sept         2) August          3) July

which means that THE MOST POPULAR  months for sex (at least the babymaking kind?) are:

1) Dec          2) Nov                3) Oct

This makes sense to me! October and November have always been my favorite months for¬†everything. Something in the air, for sure. ¬†..and still feeling summer-issue..¬† That nip, those turtlenecks and dark wool overcoats…add the Autumnal cognac or cabernet…more ellipses…

Yes, good! Breathless with anticipation! But for now, I’m going to slip into something more comfortable, oh! like a little nap! See you in June.

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